Finally met up with Dave again. Was abit special today that he was actually going out to Heaven with us tonight. Well, he finally arrived seconds after James and the girls left and so, we headed to Heaven.
Was fun in the begining. We danced, walked around Heaven, finding the perfect room with perfect music for us all. Then finally ended up in VIP room again, sitting around, resting, having a chat.
Then we finally decided to go back to the dance floor, we walked out of the VIP room and his friend walked passed him and said hi. I left him and when we were waiting and turned around, they were kissing....
oh.. sour feeling stormed on me straight away... seeing someone that you like kissing someone else is not the best feeling at all.. ouch!!! heart got all crampped up...
honza : ok, we could just leave him there. Let's go somewhere else to dance.
me : ok. sure! ( with a bitter smile on the face )
For the first couple of minutes, wasn't feeling great nor easy. Abit jumpy, sour, and a couple of unexplainable feeling mixed up in the stomach... then finally, eased myself down and there he was again. Came around and 're-joined' the group.. oh. awkward... well, we continued to dance, what else could I do ???
in the VIP room ...
Dave: so, is there anyone in the room you like?
me : ( shaking my head ) nope. ( well,my heart was actually saying 'YOU' !!! )
minutes later...
Dave: really? is there no one in the room you like? what about the blonde guy over there?
me : ( shaking my head again ) nope. ( well, 'YOU' are the one I like in the room )
thinking back, may be I should have told him that when we were in the VIP room that I do really like him.(another checked point to be added to the list ' Why Dessy is a big looooser of all time ' ) But then again, I guessed the feeling will be a lot more worse when I saw him kissing someone else right in front of me.
I think he is just not that into me and I was being too foolish to realise and too stubborn to wake up from the dream that I had.
Based on all the teases he gave me, my dressing style, my weird english accent, how I dance, how scene queeny I am and all that...plus, how he just seems to enjoy mentioning all his saucy encounters and ex-bfs... YyyyyyyyyyUP! I am just not his type. Well.. good now then I finally 'SEE' the point !!! Merely just a friend...
stupid enough or just so DESSSY enough, I waited for the bus with him for like 15-20mins...
well, Stefan Ho, I am not going to sing ' you want a piece of me' anymore..
I am singing ' HE GOT TO GO' =P
Wasn't a great night out... School Reunion Party postponed, James and the girls not coming to Heaven, Umzy acting abit weird again, Dave kissed someone in front of me... but still feel good coming home to a cleaned room ( cleaned the room before I went out though didnt hoover =P )
and still proud of myself for being able to 'sell' 20 dinner vouchers in less than 2 hours!!! =)
>>>>Life sucks! Then you DIE!!<<<<
it is almost 6 in the morning... off tomorrow but still no plan yet. Another wasted offday I guess.
A sunday chilling out in the park with Dave was apparently not happening tomorrow. =) OppS!
>>>> Take a deeo breathe... sigh... and smile again... <<<<
Well...cased closed... time to move on...
Wonder how long would that take me to have a feeling toward someone again... =)
James & Lindsey, the 4 people dinner will have to be postponed again....!!! =)
Sunday 5 April 2009
Wednesday 1 April 2009
I miss...
Francesco : so, how was the experience?
me: oh well, I do miss it alot. I miss the feeling of actually being with somebody. Sharing things,being in a relationship and having someone. Yeah, that's what I miss the most.....
on the way home from a night out with Joe, he put his arms around me and fell asleep on my shoulders/stomach. Such a nice feeling again... slowly, I felt drownsy too and I also felt asleep. Though missed the stop I had to get off, but falling asleep with someone in your arms is such a nice feeling..
I miss falling in love....
I miss being with someone....
I miss having someone on my mind all the time....
I miss having someone to go to whenever I feel happy or sad....
I miss hugging and kissing someone...
I MISS.....
me: oh well, I do miss it alot. I miss the feeling of actually being with somebody. Sharing things,being in a relationship and having someone. Yeah, that's what I miss the most.....
on the way home from a night out with Joe, he put his arms around me and fell asleep on my shoulders/stomach. Such a nice feeling again... slowly, I felt drownsy too and I also felt asleep. Though missed the stop I had to get off, but falling asleep with someone in your arms is such a nice feeling..
I miss falling in love....
I miss being with someone....
I miss having someone on my mind all the time....
I miss having someone to go to whenever I feel happy or sad....
I miss hugging and kissing someone...
I MISS.....
Monday 23 March 2009
...BaBa...
Dad seemed abit too loving today through his msgs...
"dun d0 anything ba w0uldn't d0 0k,take care, lou u"
don't know what exactly did he mean but somehow had a feeling that he was thinking about my sexuality while typing this msg...
or may be I was tooo sensitive and thought too much....
he just simply wanted me to stay safe as he said...
"dun d0 anything ba w0uldn't d0 0k,take care, lou u"
don't know what exactly did he mean but somehow had a feeling that he was thinking about my sexuality while typing this msg...
or may be I was tooo sensitive and thought too much....
he just simply wanted me to stay safe as he said...
....Not Vernice AnyMore...
>>> Peace - Not Vernice AnyMore - ( M.I. S.*a love icon* D) <<<
my heart dropped the moment I saw his nick on msn...
yes, I hurt him...
my heart dropped the moment I saw his nick on msn...
yes, I hurt him...
...missing...
" Nathan says:
ive missed hanging out with u des "
If not because of this conversation that we just had... I wouldn't realised that we haven't seen each other for around 3 months. Wow.. time does fly...
I miss you too, Nate...
ive missed hanging out with u des "
If not because of this conversation that we just had... I wouldn't realised that we haven't seen each other for around 3 months. Wow.. time does fly...
I miss you too, Nate...
Good Vs.Bad
waited and waited and waited and waited..
He finally came. Yet this time, I wasn't as excited as I used to be to finally have the chance to see him again. Despite knowing that we would be spending the next 7 days together, I wasn't really looking forward for each and every moment that was going to come.
Why? I asked myself. A question that I wasn't even able to answer myself. Confused, amazed and lost, I was.
He finally came to visit me, though it was almost two-three weeks later from the date he first promised. May be that was when it all went wrong. After realising he wasn't coming in late Feb, I was really disappointed and I finally made up my mind. Judging from all the aspect and taking everything into consideration, I asked myself " how much longer am I going to fool myself?".
He decided to further his study in the State. While knowing that myself would spend the next few years staying here in London, I didn't see any chance, any ways, any posibility of us being together. Plus, I really didn't see any future at all.
So, " how much longer am I going to fool myself to live in that dream, that fantasy that will never come? ".
I answered myself, I made a decision. I wanted nothing more than just to stay friends.
The first night that we spent together, a stupid self of me was acting against the decision that I had made earlier or was it all because I didn't even know I had actually already made that decision ? I reached to him, still reacting in the same way that I did before. We kissed, we cuddled and we spoke...
However, things changed significantly over the next few days and nights. I sub-conciously tried to avoid any physical contact with him, which might cause him some false illusions. Why? Why did I act that way ... ??
On the fourth night, he asked:" what's wrong, dear? " and I lied. I said " nothing, just I am tired and I didnt want to have s.. , so I didn't want to give you any false illusion. I am sorry. ".
He smiled and said : " it is not all about that.."
" I am sorry, I am just being silly myself.. sorry " and I laughed, half-heartedly..
The last night after he had thanked me for the stay, I felt abit guilty and I finally spoken up and apologized. Apologized for being so distant, so abnormal with him these days. Finally I told him my reasons. He seemed to have understood what I meant and what I thought and said. As usual, he was always that assuring, supportive and understanding...
was it me being all selfish again?
knowing just to protect my own feeling and getting what I want for myself but hurting people along the way? I think, I had been and I was being selfish. But on the other hand, as I said, I really didnt want to go through all the stages again... we departed, we missed or at least I would spend weeks to miss him and then calmed myself down again, convinced myself to accept the fact and the reality and then we were cool again. Friends on the net with occasional chat.
I thought it would be easier this time as I had somehow 'blocked' my feelings or rather concealed most part of it... yet, once again... he left and I had a shit day. Went back to work hours after he left... didn't feel like working at all the whole day. My mind was wondering somewhere... empty....
Over the stay, I asked myself a serious question, "as much as I said we have known each other for years and how close we have been but do I really know him that much?"
another question that I couldn't answer... I really couldn't this time...
Was it a good thing? That I had told him what I wanted and the different future for us both that I had always thought about? And I had made a decision to just remain merely friends?
Or was it a bad thing? I hurt him...
Was it a good thing? That he paid a visit this time?
Or was it a bad thing?
12th March, 1345hrs... we hugged goodbye in Heathrow...
He finally came. Yet this time, I wasn't as excited as I used to be to finally have the chance to see him again. Despite knowing that we would be spending the next 7 days together, I wasn't really looking forward for each and every moment that was going to come.
Why? I asked myself. A question that I wasn't even able to answer myself. Confused, amazed and lost, I was.
He finally came to visit me, though it was almost two-three weeks later from the date he first promised. May be that was when it all went wrong. After realising he wasn't coming in late Feb, I was really disappointed and I finally made up my mind. Judging from all the aspect and taking everything into consideration, I asked myself " how much longer am I going to fool myself?".
He decided to further his study in the State. While knowing that myself would spend the next few years staying here in London, I didn't see any chance, any ways, any posibility of us being together. Plus, I really didn't see any future at all.
So, " how much longer am I going to fool myself to live in that dream, that fantasy that will never come? ".
I answered myself, I made a decision. I wanted nothing more than just to stay friends.
The first night that we spent together, a stupid self of me was acting against the decision that I had made earlier or was it all because I didn't even know I had actually already made that decision ? I reached to him, still reacting in the same way that I did before. We kissed, we cuddled and we spoke...
However, things changed significantly over the next few days and nights. I sub-conciously tried to avoid any physical contact with him, which might cause him some false illusions. Why? Why did I act that way ... ??
On the fourth night, he asked:" what's wrong, dear? " and I lied. I said " nothing, just I am tired and I didnt want to have s.. , so I didn't want to give you any false illusion. I am sorry. ".
He smiled and said : " it is not all about that.."
" I am sorry, I am just being silly myself.. sorry " and I laughed, half-heartedly..
The last night after he had thanked me for the stay, I felt abit guilty and I finally spoken up and apologized. Apologized for being so distant, so abnormal with him these days. Finally I told him my reasons. He seemed to have understood what I meant and what I thought and said. As usual, he was always that assuring, supportive and understanding...
was it me being all selfish again?
knowing just to protect my own feeling and getting what I want for myself but hurting people along the way? I think, I had been and I was being selfish. But on the other hand, as I said, I really didnt want to go through all the stages again... we departed, we missed or at least I would spend weeks to miss him and then calmed myself down again, convinced myself to accept the fact and the reality and then we were cool again. Friends on the net with occasional chat.
I thought it would be easier this time as I had somehow 'blocked' my feelings or rather concealed most part of it... yet, once again... he left and I had a shit day. Went back to work hours after he left... didn't feel like working at all the whole day. My mind was wondering somewhere... empty....
Over the stay, I asked myself a serious question, "as much as I said we have known each other for years and how close we have been but do I really know him that much?"
another question that I couldn't answer... I really couldn't this time...
Was it a good thing? That I had told him what I wanted and the different future for us both that I had always thought about? And I had made a decision to just remain merely friends?
Or was it a bad thing? I hurt him...
Was it a good thing? That he paid a visit this time?
Or was it a bad thing?
12th March, 1345hrs... we hugged goodbye in Heathrow...
Sunday 8 March 2009
he is just not that into you
gigi said have faith... =)
nice film... and with a msg... nice! like it.. =)
nice film... and with a msg... nice! like it.. =)
Thursday 5 March 2009
a phone call...
supervisor : come... ( still chewing his bread roll, with another half on his hand )
supervisor : I have just got a phone call
me: ( confused....)
supervisor : a phone call from Lynn
me: Oh..!! Oh..!! Miss. Lynn, table 72.. yeah?
supervisor : she called me and said she was really happy with your service. ( and held out one hand... ) she said you were good and very confident in what you are doing. You know what you are doing. Good...!
me : ( with a grin on my face, held out one hand to meet his.. shaking and then holding in place.. in the middle, between us )
supervisor :( smiling )congratulations!! You have done a good job. Never, never in my work experience I have a guest called down to me after they have a meal in the restaurant to give comments on the server... Thank yoU! you did a good job...well done..
me: ( still with the grin.. may be abit wider now...) thank you.. thank you..
supervisor : thank yoU!.. well done !! I will mention it in the briefing too...great job...!
me: ( self-contented ) thanks !!
me: ( self-speaking ) YES !! THANK YOU MISS LYNN!!!
supervisor : I have just got a phone call
me: ( confused....)
supervisor : a phone call from Lynn
me: Oh..!! Oh..!! Miss. Lynn, table 72.. yeah?
supervisor : she called me and said she was really happy with your service. ( and held out one hand... ) she said you were good and very confident in what you are doing. You know what you are doing. Good...!
me : ( with a grin on my face, held out one hand to meet his.. shaking and then holding in place.. in the middle, between us )
supervisor :( smiling )congratulations!! You have done a good job. Never, never in my work experience I have a guest called down to me after they have a meal in the restaurant to give comments on the server... Thank yoU! you did a good job...well done..
me: ( still with the grin.. may be abit wider now...) thank you.. thank you..
supervisor : thank yoU!.. well done !! I will mention it in the briefing too...great job...!
me: ( self-contented ) thanks !!
me: ( self-speaking ) YES !! THANK YOU MISS LYNN!!!
Wednesday 4 March 2009
wuahahahahaha!!
wuahahahhaa!! hehehehe !! Happy happy! Yeppi Yeppi !!
he called.. finally...!! Lolz..!!
wuahahhahahaaa!!! and we talked for a while.. ! opps.! =P
I AM HAPPY!!! =P
he called.. finally...!! Lolz..!!
wuahahhahahaaa!!! and we talked for a while.. ! opps.! =P
I AM HAPPY!!! =P
Saturday 28 February 2009
Friday 27 February 2009
public kissing should be banned !!!
really disgusting ( out of jealousy ) when noticing/realising people kissing in public... !!!
public kissing should be banned !!! Until I got my partner to join in!!!
=< really depressing while you are single and surrounding by those couples.. hugging,holding hands, flirting.. worst! KISSING !!!! Gosh!!
anyone shares the same idea?!!
!!! public kissing should be banned !!!
public kissing should be banned !!! Until I got my partner to join in!!!
=< really depressing while you are single and surrounding by those couples.. hugging,holding hands, flirting.. worst! KISSING !!!! Gosh!!
anyone shares the same idea?!!
!!! public kissing should be banned !!!
Wednesday 25 February 2009
Tuesday 24 February 2009
.. I kissed a boy..
This was never the way I planned, not my intention...
It felt so wrong, it felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it....
It felt so wrong, it felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it....
Monday 23 February 2009
true love exits after all?
met up with Tarek finally.... lovely in person.. had a bit of chit-chatting...
he surprised me when we left the bar and he got back the bottle of champagne he bought from the bouncer, which he prepared for tomorrow night. A dinner invitation for #2 at his place...
was really shocked to find out that he is so in love ...
then while on the way walking to the tube station, he asked me how to prepare a good steak.... and oh! found out that he is going to make a 3 course meal... awww.. how sweet is that...!! that really melt my heart...
seconds later.. DANG!!! why have I never come across someone like him? someone that will make me a 3 course meal? not even a 3 course... just a meal!! would be nice? awww... how sweet... but guess that's what only the bottoms do...
does true love really exit after alll...? or is it just a dream, a hope for the bottoms...?
well.. at least after all, it is nice to see people with hopes, the very same hope that I have do exit after all...
does true love really exit? in our world...?
well... I have my faith and keep to my belief...
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>YES IT DOES<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
he surprised me when we left the bar and he got back the bottle of champagne he bought from the bouncer, which he prepared for tomorrow night. A dinner invitation for #2 at his place...
was really shocked to find out that he is so in love ...
then while on the way walking to the tube station, he asked me how to prepare a good steak.... and oh! found out that he is going to make a 3 course meal... awww.. how sweet is that...!! that really melt my heart...
seconds later.. DANG!!! why have I never come across someone like him? someone that will make me a 3 course meal? not even a 3 course... just a meal!! would be nice? awww... how sweet... but guess that's what only the bottoms do...
does true love really exit after alll...? or is it just a dream, a hope for the bottoms...?
well.. at least after all, it is nice to see people with hopes, the very same hope that I have do exit after all...
does true love really exit? in our world...?
well... I have my faith and keep to my belief...
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>YES IT DOES<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Saturday 21 February 2009
Friday 20 February 2009
Saturday 31 January 2009
>'= GoOdBye! JaMeS =,<
James moved out..!! ='<
I am all alone now..
who's gonna talk to me now?
who's gonna drink tea with me late at night now?
who's gonna make me hot honey lemon when i have my nose blocked up/running now?
who's gonna had a go with me when i make a mess in the room now?
who's gonna put the pop songs I like on the top volume now?
who's gonna cook with me now?
who's gonna wake me up now?
who's gonna show off his new bought begs,shoes,shirts,jeans and jackets now?
who's gonna listen to my little late-night-out adventures now?
who's gonna watch that dunno-what movie online and make me laugh so much though I wasnt watching but listening to the dialogs now?
who's gonna go to Chop Chop with me now?
who's gonna call me lazy when I want to sleep more now?
who's gonna eat the food I bought now?
who's gonna ask me how to go to a bloody god-knows-where place in London now?
who's gonna give me opinion on how I look like when I change to go out?
who's gonna lend me money when I am broke now?
who's gonna laugh at me when I dig on my piggy bank now?
most importantly....
....who's gonna be there for me when I need a friend now....?
Will miss you James...
oh no!... I already am.... missing you.....
p/s: anyway, you are just moving away to a flat an hour or so from here!!!
I am all alone now..
who's gonna talk to me now?
who's gonna drink tea with me late at night now?
who's gonna make me hot honey lemon when i have my nose blocked up/running now?
who's gonna had a go with me when i make a mess in the room now?
who's gonna put the pop songs I like on the top volume now?
who's gonna cook with me now?
who's gonna wake me up now?
who's gonna show off his new bought begs,shoes,shirts,jeans and jackets now?
who's gonna listen to my little late-night-out adventures now?
who's gonna watch that dunno-what movie online and make me laugh so much though I wasnt watching but listening to the dialogs now?
who's gonna go to Chop Chop with me now?
who's gonna call me lazy when I want to sleep more now?
who's gonna eat the food I bought now?
who's gonna ask me how to go to a bloody god-knows-where place in London now?
who's gonna give me opinion on how I look like when I change to go out?
who's gonna lend me money when I am broke now?
who's gonna laugh at me when I dig on my piggy bank now?
most importantly....
....who's gonna be there for me when I need a friend now....?
Will miss you James...
oh no!... I already am.... missing you.....
p/s: anyway, you are just moving away to a flat an hour or so from here!!!
Wednesday 28 January 2009
*** You're a Star***
GIRAFFY!
Keep on smiling
and
ALL
WILL
BE
FINE!
Love,
Honza
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YES ! I WILL BE !!!
~tears~
had a pretty rough, bad , long day today...
started off in the morning when i opened my locker in the changing room... someone else's stuff was inside and mine was all gone !!! couldn't change my uniforms so i went to the canteen to wait for the supervisor and see what we could do about it. while sitting in the canteen, i thought why not to help them setting up the buffet first. So i went in the kitchen area, trying to do what i wanted to do and the chef saw me. He spoke to me not so nicely : what are u doing here? why are u like this? no uniform, OUT of the kitchen! . oh well.. i explained what happened and he agreed and allowed me to continue what i intended to do ..
minutes later, the supervisor came and was shocked while he saw me in my normal clothing. I explained what happened to him and he said, ok go help and then talkto the HR later. So i did what I do every morning, setting up the buffet.. when i finished and went back to the kitchen... saw the uniform attendent, went up to her and wanted to ask something. Before i managed to ask anything, she started : Uniform at 7 o'clock, i am going to be in the laundry now... uniform at 7 o'clock!
oh well, okies... so i walked off and said thank you...
then the night manager saw me and went mental!! Shouted at me : What are you doing here? why are you like this? where is your uniform? why are u in the kitchen? do yo uknow you are not allowed to be in here like this?... and on and on and on... tried to explained, but he didnt listen... and wanted me straight out of the kitchen and sent me directly to the canteen... BUSTED ...!!!
went to the canteen reallly pissed off and upset !! Was it really my fault.. and ok, i did something wrong of being in the kitchen without my uniform but, did everyone have to shout back/ react like that.. say it/communicate it nicely.. is that a hard work?
Fine! got a cup of tea, sat down and a collegue walked in... explained to him what happened and he said it happened sometimes, so take it easy.. nice words... then the supervisor came in and asked me to go down to the uniform room and get my another set of the uniform. Right at that moment, the uniform attendent walked in, and she shouted: NO !!! you can't do it like that.. now you are having another problem with the locker? This is the second time! now you have lost two set of uniform!! NO.. you can not do it like that... and on and on and on...
my supervisor trying to explain what happened and ended up a rather LOUD discussion, right behind me.. GREAT!! that's exactly what i want ....!
At last, i followed her down to the uniform room and got my another set of the uniforms but she never stopped !! still keep going on.. and on and on... ' so this is your last uniform.. you have nothing to change anymore.. so don't come here and get change next time ...'
ok ok.. that's what i knew how to respond and really fed up with dealing with her anyway... then i asked a question out of casuality. Thinking if someone had taken over my locker then they must have cleared it and would probably take things back here, especially the uniforms. so i asked her if she had received anything.. and BOMB! again! bounced back ' have u seen anything that is yours around here? NO.. there isnt. i haven't received anything! '... BOMB!! got BOMBED again!!
but i haven't got my shoes !! now i had the uniform but what about my shoes... met the supervisor and he asked me to go change and will put me to polish cutlery today... so i changed.. black shirt, black apron , black trousers and WHITE shoes...! WEeeeeeee...!! the CLOWN of the day !!!
walked in the kitchen again throught the stewarding area, and the fat stewarding guy started again :' OI!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? ' .... couldnt really be bothered to deal with him.. so i said : 'Oh don't start with me again please..! ' in an unfriendly way...
Had briefing..and went to start the work of today !! Came another supervisor. Buffled he looked. I had to explain again and agreed to talk to the HR afterwards...
so been working as a clown today.. whoever that passed by, those that spotted on my CLOWNLY new uniforms looked surprised, shocked and somehow, amazed and annoyed... some started in an unfriendly tone..' what is it? why are u dressing up like this? what are u doing?
some jumped right straight into the conclusions ' did you forget/lost your locker keys ?'
some came smiling and laughing asking what happened...
'.. stayed calm and smiled and explained.. stayed calm and smiled and explained... 'I told myself....
THE NEW F& B MANAGER !!!!!! eye widened just a little bit on his emotionless face when i told him what happened after he came running asking me to do him a favour... and again, agreed to speak to the HR about this urgent issue afterwards when they came in to work...
tick... tick... tick... 10.30am! breakfast finished... work getting easier... time to go to the HR. Went down to the HR Share Services Office, no one could deal with it and sent me to the Head HR, walked to her building, no one's there.. back to the kitchen, spoke to the supervisor and had to go and check if she would be in the office again later.
back and forth.. back and forth.. Finally, the F&B Manager appeared and lead me to the HR with him... sorted things out in her office.. my stuff was in a HUGE chinky red,white,blue stripe kinda bag... everything's there...
pheww.... released !!! She apologized and promised to give me a new locker later on.. okies fine.. things sorted out, everything is ok!
walked back to the restaurant with my shoes.. all BLACK now.. not a single bit of white! had lunch, stayed for lunch service... 3.30pm, signed out. OFF WORK...
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on the bus, tried to ring this lady that arrange the single room viewing yesterday. Wanted to make an apppointment to pay the deposit for the single room..
ring once... no answer
ring twice... no answer
third time... no answer
fourth... no answer
fifth... no answer...
GAVE UP then i sent her a msg... asking her to call back ASAP...
got home... OH!! Where're my clothes? They were there on the heater when i left for work this morning, now they are gone? went upstairs, into the room, asked James, he didnt know... well... soemthing bad is coming up i sensed!
looked around the room, nope.. nothing... dustbins outside, nope...
well... someone had taken them...!!
got really really upset and went grumpy...!! called the school registrar, she was the 1st one on my mind that i thought i might seek help from, for help... because I really didnt know what else to do ... as I assumed it was that bitch's great work. She moved out, not happy, saw my stuff, took them and threw them away !! and the other fat one's car was outside the house. so YEAH !!!
HAD ENOUGH! went upstairs wanted to take a shower.. but broke down in tears instead in the dark..... thinking;
1 - what have i done that i deserved all these?
2 - what a shit day i have today!
3 - I couldnt cope anymore...
4 - Have i really done something that bad to deserve all these?
5 - I have no one to share all these with...I cry, who could I cry to?
6 - Felt lonely
well.. all sort of things.. and tears kept coming down....
Stopped and felt better.. more released... clothes only.. not a big big issue anyway.. gone is gone.. nothing i could really do to get them back.
peeep..peeep...peep.... someone called! answer and a voice came from the other end : so what happened..? you lost all your clotheS? how many clothes and what are they? Your work clothes?... the landlord called... guess it was the registrar who informed him... didnt sound happy yet abit helpful...
' i don't know what is happening and who ever that started it.. but now it is getting as a very childish fight!'
apologized and thanked for the help.. hung up the phone and went back to the room...spoke to James about it...
oppss.... another thing to annoy the principle...!!
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Decided to call the lady again...
ring one... no answer
ring two... no answer
then used James phone to call
ring one... no answer
ring two...... ......... HELLO, XXX SPEAKING!!!
so she picked up the phone and explained she left the phone somewhere the whole day and just got back the phone...
asked about the room and she said ' oh but the currenly tenant had decided she wanted to stay again, so i am really sorry the room is not available anymore . BUt i have another room of the same price in chiswick... blah blah blah'...
KNEW IT !!! I knew this was going to happen !!! .. meanwhile was reading the mail from BaBa.. made things even worse... all in a sudden, felt like i miss them so so so so so much...!! especially now, when having problems, but i couldn't tell them because didnt want to spoil their holidays worrying about me over here.... tears started to flood the eyes again... and rolled down...
went straight up to the toilet.. closed the door, off the light, sat down in the corner.. and started to cry again... the second time...
thinking...
1 - family
2 - family
3 - family
4 - family
5 - family...........
I really really missed them... promised myself will go home for CNY next year....
tears kept coming down.. and down and down...
stopped... and felt tired... think i dozed off for a few seconds in the toilet until i heard my phone was buzzing.... must be Honza that called...
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Came downstairs, went back online and spoke to Honza.. told me everything of the day... and then when i finished, he said he is sorry and he got to go to sort things out and asked me to stayed online...
talked alittle bit with James, sat for a while in front of the computer and went to lay down on the bed for a while.. then phone was buzzing again...
' hey... it's me..how are you? come downstairs! '
' what! you are outside now?'
went downstairs, opened the dooor and there he was... Honza.. holding a bag...!
a chocolate cake + a card + three chocolate eggs + hugs = SWEET !!!
that really cheered me up alot and so unexpected !!!
Thank you Honzky!!!
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chated a little bit with Mish Mish.. gosh! can't believe how much I miss him and really couldn't wait to see him again in London!
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THE END OF THE SHIT DAY........
started off in the morning when i opened my locker in the changing room... someone else's stuff was inside and mine was all gone !!! couldn't change my uniforms so i went to the canteen to wait for the supervisor and see what we could do about it. while sitting in the canteen, i thought why not to help them setting up the buffet first. So i went in the kitchen area, trying to do what i wanted to do and the chef saw me. He spoke to me not so nicely : what are u doing here? why are u like this? no uniform, OUT of the kitchen! . oh well.. i explained what happened and he agreed and allowed me to continue what i intended to do ..
minutes later, the supervisor came and was shocked while he saw me in my normal clothing. I explained what happened to him and he said, ok go help and then talkto the HR later. So i did what I do every morning, setting up the buffet.. when i finished and went back to the kitchen... saw the uniform attendent, went up to her and wanted to ask something. Before i managed to ask anything, she started : Uniform at 7 o'clock, i am going to be in the laundry now... uniform at 7 o'clock!
oh well, okies... so i walked off and said thank you...
then the night manager saw me and went mental!! Shouted at me : What are you doing here? why are you like this? where is your uniform? why are u in the kitchen? do yo uknow you are not allowed to be in here like this?... and on and on and on... tried to explained, but he didnt listen... and wanted me straight out of the kitchen and sent me directly to the canteen... BUSTED ...!!!
went to the canteen reallly pissed off and upset !! Was it really my fault.. and ok, i did something wrong of being in the kitchen without my uniform but, did everyone have to shout back/ react like that.. say it/communicate it nicely.. is that a hard work?
Fine! got a cup of tea, sat down and a collegue walked in... explained to him what happened and he said it happened sometimes, so take it easy.. nice words... then the supervisor came in and asked me to go down to the uniform room and get my another set of the uniform. Right at that moment, the uniform attendent walked in, and she shouted: NO !!! you can't do it like that.. now you are having another problem with the locker? This is the second time! now you have lost two set of uniform!! NO.. you can not do it like that... and on and on and on...
my supervisor trying to explain what happened and ended up a rather LOUD discussion, right behind me.. GREAT!! that's exactly what i want ....!
At last, i followed her down to the uniform room and got my another set of the uniforms but she never stopped !! still keep going on.. and on and on... ' so this is your last uniform.. you have nothing to change anymore.. so don't come here and get change next time ...'
ok ok.. that's what i knew how to respond and really fed up with dealing with her anyway... then i asked a question out of casuality. Thinking if someone had taken over my locker then they must have cleared it and would probably take things back here, especially the uniforms. so i asked her if she had received anything.. and BOMB! again! bounced back ' have u seen anything that is yours around here? NO.. there isnt. i haven't received anything! '... BOMB!! got BOMBED again!!
but i haven't got my shoes !! now i had the uniform but what about my shoes... met the supervisor and he asked me to go change and will put me to polish cutlery today... so i changed.. black shirt, black apron , black trousers and WHITE shoes...! WEeeeeeee...!! the CLOWN of the day !!!
walked in the kitchen again throught the stewarding area, and the fat stewarding guy started again :' OI!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? ' .... couldnt really be bothered to deal with him.. so i said : 'Oh don't start with me again please..! ' in an unfriendly way...
Had briefing..and went to start the work of today !! Came another supervisor. Buffled he looked. I had to explain again and agreed to talk to the HR afterwards...
so been working as a clown today.. whoever that passed by, those that spotted on my CLOWNLY new uniforms looked surprised, shocked and somehow, amazed and annoyed... some started in an unfriendly tone..' what is it? why are u dressing up like this? what are u doing?
some jumped right straight into the conclusions ' did you forget/lost your locker keys ?'
some came smiling and laughing asking what happened...
'.. stayed calm and smiled and explained.. stayed calm and smiled and explained... 'I told myself....
THE NEW F& B MANAGER !!!!!! eye widened just a little bit on his emotionless face when i told him what happened after he came running asking me to do him a favour... and again, agreed to speak to the HR about this urgent issue afterwards when they came in to work...
tick... tick... tick... 10.30am! breakfast finished... work getting easier... time to go to the HR. Went down to the HR Share Services Office, no one could deal with it and sent me to the Head HR, walked to her building, no one's there.. back to the kitchen, spoke to the supervisor and had to go and check if she would be in the office again later.
back and forth.. back and forth.. Finally, the F&B Manager appeared and lead me to the HR with him... sorted things out in her office.. my stuff was in a HUGE chinky red,white,blue stripe kinda bag... everything's there...
pheww.... released !!! She apologized and promised to give me a new locker later on.. okies fine.. things sorted out, everything is ok!
walked back to the restaurant with my shoes.. all BLACK now.. not a single bit of white! had lunch, stayed for lunch service... 3.30pm, signed out. OFF WORK...
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on the bus, tried to ring this lady that arrange the single room viewing yesterday. Wanted to make an apppointment to pay the deposit for the single room..
ring once... no answer
ring twice... no answer
third time... no answer
fourth... no answer
fifth... no answer...
GAVE UP then i sent her a msg... asking her to call back ASAP...
got home... OH!! Where're my clothes? They were there on the heater when i left for work this morning, now they are gone? went upstairs, into the room, asked James, he didnt know... well... soemthing bad is coming up i sensed!
looked around the room, nope.. nothing... dustbins outside, nope...
well... someone had taken them...!!
got really really upset and went grumpy...!! called the school registrar, she was the 1st one on my mind that i thought i might seek help from, for help... because I really didnt know what else to do ... as I assumed it was that bitch's great work. She moved out, not happy, saw my stuff, took them and threw them away !! and the other fat one's car was outside the house. so YEAH !!!
HAD ENOUGH! went upstairs wanted to take a shower.. but broke down in tears instead in the dark..... thinking;
1 - what have i done that i deserved all these?
2 - what a shit day i have today!
3 - I couldnt cope anymore...
4 - Have i really done something that bad to deserve all these?
5 - I have no one to share all these with...I cry, who could I cry to?
6 - Felt lonely
well.. all sort of things.. and tears kept coming down....
Stopped and felt better.. more released... clothes only.. not a big big issue anyway.. gone is gone.. nothing i could really do to get them back.
peeep..peeep...peep.... someone called! answer and a voice came from the other end : so what happened..? you lost all your clotheS? how many clothes and what are they? Your work clothes?... the landlord called... guess it was the registrar who informed him... didnt sound happy yet abit helpful...
' i don't know what is happening and who ever that started it.. but now it is getting as a very childish fight!'
apologized and thanked for the help.. hung up the phone and went back to the room...spoke to James about it...
oppss.... another thing to annoy the principle...!!
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Decided to call the lady again...
ring one... no answer
ring two... no answer
then used James phone to call
ring one... no answer
ring two...... ......... HELLO, XXX SPEAKING!!!
so she picked up the phone and explained she left the phone somewhere the whole day and just got back the phone...
asked about the room and she said ' oh but the currenly tenant had decided she wanted to stay again, so i am really sorry the room is not available anymore . BUt i have another room of the same price in chiswick... blah blah blah'...
KNEW IT !!! I knew this was going to happen !!! .. meanwhile was reading the mail from BaBa.. made things even worse... all in a sudden, felt like i miss them so so so so so much...!! especially now, when having problems, but i couldn't tell them because didnt want to spoil their holidays worrying about me over here.... tears started to flood the eyes again... and rolled down...
went straight up to the toilet.. closed the door, off the light, sat down in the corner.. and started to cry again... the second time...
thinking...
1 - family
2 - family
3 - family
4 - family
5 - family...........
I really really missed them... promised myself will go home for CNY next year....
tears kept coming down.. and down and down...
stopped... and felt tired... think i dozed off for a few seconds in the toilet until i heard my phone was buzzing.... must be Honza that called...
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Came downstairs, went back online and spoke to Honza.. told me everything of the day... and then when i finished, he said he is sorry and he got to go to sort things out and asked me to stayed online...
talked alittle bit with James, sat for a while in front of the computer and went to lay down on the bed for a while.. then phone was buzzing again...
' hey... it's me..how are you? come downstairs! '
' what! you are outside now?'
went downstairs, opened the dooor and there he was... Honza.. holding a bag...!
a chocolate cake + a card + three chocolate eggs + hugs = SWEET !!!
that really cheered me up alot and so unexpected !!!
Thank you Honzky!!!
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chated a little bit with Mish Mish.. gosh! can't believe how much I miss him and really couldn't wait to see him again in London!
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THE END OF THE SHIT DAY........
Tuesday 27 January 2009
~新年快乐~
新年快乐！！
万事如意！！
恭贺新禧！！
新春大吉！！
*thank you to my lovely Lu yee for posting me this beautiful CNY card.. not just because it is cute, it is the efford that melts my heart...awwww....
Saturday 24 January 2009
Friday 23 January 2009
.....sAd......
Had a kinda loooooow day yesterday.. wasn't feeling the best at all in the evening...
reasons being two of my currents dreams were smashed..=<
1st - quitting the shitty job in Hilton and working in Four Seasons Hotel, Canary Wharf. Yesterday finally made a decision to call up the hotel and ask about the employment. Sadly, they were not employing.....sob sob!!
2nd - was going to move into a single room, thinking ' oh finally, i will have a room for me own and have some privacy ' but thing turned out that I am not moving. Not really sure if this is good or bad as the area that I was about to move into is not as what i expected it to be, neither does the room. Didnt really like it 100% anyway.. but, argh! another dream was smashed!!
TWO in a single evening !!! Anyway, had been a long time didnt really feel -down- , so it was kind a refreshment of my emotion really... Then, been searching for a single room online and it seemed just impossible to get what I want in Hammersmith area, unless i want to move out of the area, to east london.. nice and cheap! lolz..
One of the best thing of the day was I went to a Turkish Cuisine Restaurant with Jameson, not to mention the deliciousness of the meal, Lamp Kebab served with rice and salad and the on-the-house bread with some yougurt thingy.. oh YUM!!!! That cheered me up!! so so so so so much!! Had nice chat with Jameson again.. hahaha .. friends is all that i need!!!
Moaned about being so lonely, single, don't have a partner.. oh gosh!! that was another depressing moment... ='< wonder when will i have one.. oh a lovely one...!!
>>>>>>>>I am REALLY to LOVE again!!!! PEPS!!! APPLY WITHIN!!!!! =P <<<<<<<<<
So what's next.. no more dream job, no more dream room for Giraffy... oh yeah, and also, no more dream man for me too!!! (*Alex just doesn't seem interested in keeping in touch!*)... argh!! LIFEEEEE......!!!!!
And how pathetic I am, haven't been out since Monday night, been sitting in front of the computer every night every since. INTERNET again... aiks!! how how how how pathetic...!!!
>>>Another Best Thing Of The Day<<<
couldnt believe they serve this tea in the Turkish Cuisine Restaurant. Oh dear... i miss this tea so so so much and it brought back so much sweet memory...*Mishy Mishy
reasons being two of my currents dreams were smashed..=<
1st - quitting the shitty job in Hilton and working in Four Seasons Hotel, Canary Wharf. Yesterday finally made a decision to call up the hotel and ask about the employment. Sadly, they were not employing.....sob sob!!
2nd - was going to move into a single room, thinking ' oh finally, i will have a room for me own and have some privacy ' but thing turned out that I am not moving. Not really sure if this is good or bad as the area that I was about to move into is not as what i expected it to be, neither does the room. Didnt really like it 100% anyway.. but, argh! another dream was smashed!!
TWO in a single evening !!! Anyway, had been a long time didnt really feel -down- , so it was kind a refreshment of my emotion really... Then, been searching for a single room online and it seemed just impossible to get what I want in Hammersmith area, unless i want to move out of the area, to east london.. nice and cheap! lolz..
One of the best thing of the day was I went to a Turkish Cuisine Restaurant with Jameson, not to mention the deliciousness of the meal, Lamp Kebab served with rice and salad and the on-the-house bread with some yougurt thingy.. oh YUM!!!! That cheered me up!! so so so so so much!! Had nice chat with Jameson again.. hahaha .. friends is all that i need!!!
Moaned about being so lonely, single, don't have a partner.. oh gosh!! that was another depressing moment... ='< wonder when will i have one.. oh a lovely one...!!
>>>>>>>>I am REALLY to LOVE again!!!! PEPS!!! APPLY WITHIN!!!!! =P <<<<<<<<<
So what's next.. no more dream job, no more dream room for Giraffy... oh yeah, and also, no more dream man for me too!!! (*Alex just doesn't seem interested in keeping in touch!*)... argh!! LIFEEEEE......!!!!!
And how pathetic I am, haven't been out since Monday night, been sitting in front of the computer every night every since. INTERNET again... aiks!! how how how how pathetic...!!!
>>>Another Best Thing Of The Day<<<
couldnt believe they serve this tea in the Turkish Cuisine Restaurant. Oh dear... i miss this tea so so so much and it brought back so much sweet memory...*Mishy Mishy
Friday 16 January 2009
...fAnkS gAwJuzzzzz!!!...
topic of the day at West11 yesterday was ' thank you ' !! Yeah.. reallY! fAnK Q!! fAnK Q so so so so much to Barry and Honza and also Jamessssson, the sweet cutie pie!!
fank Q so much for the two gawjuzz guys that came to -Heaven- with me. Had a FABBBB night out.. music was great..crowds was great.. lighting was great.. nude show was great.. everything was GREAT!!!
and Fank Q for sweet Jamessson for waiting me to come home( well, probably he was jz too addicted to his online HK drama!). =P but still.. FANK Q !! That was soooo SWEET!!!
Spent £90 today at TOPMAN... OpPs!!! Not as planned...!!! Will c what will happen towards the end of the month.. hahaha! =P.. dad dad again? lolz..!! hope not...!!
>>>>>>>>>>>> fAnKs! fAnK Q ! fAnKs ! <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
fank Q so much for the two gawjuzz guys that came to -Heaven- with me. Had a FABBBB night out.. music was great..crowds was great.. lighting was great.. nude show was great.. everything was GREAT!!!
and Fank Q for sweet Jamessson for waiting me to come home( well, probably he was jz too addicted to his online HK drama!). =P but still.. FANK Q !! That was soooo SWEET!!!
Spent £90 today at TOPMAN... OpPs!!! Not as planned...!!! Will c what will happen towards the end of the month.. hahaha! =P.. dad dad again? lolz..!! hope not...!!
>>>>>>>>>>>> fAnKs! fAnK Q ! fAnKs ! <<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
Monday 12 January 2009
Thursday 8 January 2009
New Hair Cut....!
Dessy had a new hair cut with the foxy lady- Joe
it was the first time and he was wondering how would it look like. IT turned out REALLY REALLY NICE>...! Ohh.. LOVING IT !!
NICE HAIR CUT DESSY!!!
GOOD WORK FOXY LADY!!!
James had his haircut tooo and he liked it haha..
>>>>>>>>>FOXY LADY, YOU ARE AMAZING !!!<<<<<<<<<<<
Dessy's spontaneous rating >>>> 10/10 !!!
reasons being >>> felt like a hair cut, and then msged the Foxy Lady, got the address, and off they go.. hahaha!!
Shameless thing of the day :
ask Dad Dad for more money... as in I spent all my wages already .. eiks !
Wednesday 7 January 2009
...Patience...
One of the thing that I always lack of >>> Patience !!
I guess ever since when I was able to remember things, >>Patience<< this word does not really register in my own dictionary...
Finally made some effort to rang up the school, made an appointment with the principle yesterday to have a little talk about my current work...
Had a less than 10 minutes chat with him after so long considerations about what to talk about and mentally preparation. All he said to me was just ' be patient about it '...
As if i am one of the patient person around.. oh hell yeah !! Guess I will just have to stick on it then.. shiaat !!!
and he also said I could quit it if I am really that determined but he wouldnt help me to find a job. I would have to find it myself and it shouldnt be any other mickey mouse company. Despite of the current situation, that fucking credit crunch, it might be a high risk to take.. oh!!
... what to do ...!!
plus, the HR called me that day and i complaint so much... opps !!!
anyway.. going out tonight with Honkzy... YAY!! can't wait.. hahaha !!
I guess ever since when I was able to remember things, >>Patience<< this word does not really register in my own dictionary...
Finally made some effort to rang up the school, made an appointment with the principle yesterday to have a little talk about my current work...
Had a less than 10 minutes chat with him after so long considerations about what to talk about and mentally preparation. All he said to me was just ' be patient about it '...
As if i am one of the patient person around.. oh hell yeah !! Guess I will just have to stick on it then.. shiaat !!!
and he also said I could quit it if I am really that determined but he wouldnt help me to find a job. I would have to find it myself and it shouldnt be any other mickey mouse company. Despite of the current situation, that fucking credit crunch, it might be a high risk to take.. oh!!
... what to do ...!!
plus, the HR called me that day and i complaint so much... opps !!!
anyway.. going out tonight with Honkzy... YAY!! can't wait.. hahaha !!
Monday 5 January 2009
New Things + Old Stuff
Guess most people will chuck away old stuff from last years and keep putting new things in to welcome the new year... what a habit, no? but actually sometimes it is nice to keep things... memories...!!
not just about the materials, physical stuff... sometimes, to welcome a new year we yell for new start, new life. Making new year resolutions, making changes in our own life... i do wonder sometimes why do we all( or most of us) do it? is NEW YEAR the only time to make changes? The only starting point? or it is just what-others-do-i-do-too ??
For some reasons, I like to collect things.. whatever it is. Vintage! As old looking as it could be, my favourite.
''Desmond, you don't have to go to work today?' was a rather unusual wake-up-call for me this morning. Staring at the cellphone next to me.. OH SHIIIIIAAT !! 7 o'clock already and i was supposed to start my shift an hour ago..
''oh no...! oh no..! what do i do now.. what do i do now...! OKIES! call in sick..but what sickness? headache? stomachache? fever? cold? what ?'' was what buzzing around my head the next second... after a few seconds of laying deadly still on bed thinking, i finally picked up the phone and dialed the number..
'' good morning, this is Desmond from West11, I am sorry to call now and i know it is late but I am having a diarrhoea. I cant come to work and i was supposed to start work at 6am... blah~blah~blah''
so one problem solved! went back to sleep... haha.. was thinking .. 'diarrhoea'!! what a typical excuse i used all the time since childhood to avoid going to school, to have more sleep, going to tuition classes and of course, gaining attentions too !! It just made me realised no matter how much I have grown up, somehow, i still use things that i used during y childhood... a habit? a characteristic? what's yours ? his? hers? theirs? others? I do really wonder somehow...
* although it is my usual excuse, but I do have bad and sensitive digestive system, hence it is convincing most of the time.. clever huh? hehehe...*
But I did think I was able to wake up on time today with TWO alarms set and putting them next to my pillow...!!! Wondered why i didnt hear anything( yet! again!) this morning... went out yesterday with Umzy and got to bed at 1am... i did this couple of time before. Hmmm.. really wonder why...!!
mentioning about going out. Yeah! what have really got into me! I have been going out pretty often nowadays! Almost every off days, i wanted to go out even on working days! Is it what as i mentioned above? some changes?
but I am enjoying it !! Music does turn me on!! Good one of course !! Been meeting up and hanging out with new friends... I think I am starting to enjoy my life now!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehuu!!
funny thing for today:
uMzy says:
well.. yeah.. u got the reason.. u were soo sick tht u didnt get up on time cuz od medication ... and whn u got up , u were still ill.
GiRaFfy says:
i said i had a diarhea or however u will spell it
uMzy says:
if ur supervisor is english, he eill understand.. if hes ur bro, he wont give a shit and if , if hes Indian.. best of luck with tht
GiRaFfy says:
lolz.. u are right he is indian !
uMzy says:
ohh no.. here we go
Lovely things for today:
Stefan said he loves me always!!
Kelvin said he care for me and Tommy as friends and we hold a special space in his heart in his friends department!! * awww.. how sweet!!! Thanks Kelvin*
NEW thing for today:
Kevin from my workplace just gave another call to check how am i doing in my position as i have now been employed for over a month. I said exactly what I thought and what I have been telling my friends. Opps.. that's something new in me!!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> BRAVERY<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
as I never really complaint to people straight in their faces.... haha NEW YEAR!!!
what a nice day off.. staying in the whole day.. now getting a slight headache because i haven't left the room yet except for the little breakfast preparation downstairs and shower upstairs. LOlz..! what a lazy bastard.. * see! the same old me!!
Recently fell in love with this song ~ Desert Rose- by Sting. One of my old-time favourite song.. love the arabic singing part..
and also, The Desert Rose by Aishwarya Rai. The dance in the desert just simply took my breathe away...!! gorgeous!!!
and I am still figuring out how to edit this blog site nicely... hmm.. any help?
not just about the materials, physical stuff... sometimes, to welcome a new year we yell for new start, new life. Making new year resolutions, making changes in our own life... i do wonder sometimes why do we all( or most of us) do it? is NEW YEAR the only time to make changes? The only starting point? or it is just what-others-do-i-do-too ??
For some reasons, I like to collect things.. whatever it is. Vintage! As old looking as it could be, my favourite.
''Desmond, you don't have to go to work today?' was a rather unusual wake-up-call for me this morning. Staring at the cellphone next to me.. OH SHIIIIIAAT !! 7 o'clock already and i was supposed to start my shift an hour ago..
''oh no...! oh no..! what do i do now.. what do i do now...! OKIES! call in sick..but what sickness? headache? stomachache? fever? cold? what ?'' was what buzzing around my head the next second... after a few seconds of laying deadly still on bed thinking, i finally picked up the phone and dialed the number..
'' good morning, this is Desmond from West11, I am sorry to call now and i know it is late but I am having a diarrhoea. I cant come to work and i was supposed to start work at 6am... blah~blah~blah''
so one problem solved! went back to sleep... haha.. was thinking .. 'diarrhoea'!! what a typical excuse i used all the time since childhood to avoid going to school, to have more sleep, going to tuition classes and of course, gaining attentions too !! It just made me realised no matter how much I have grown up, somehow, i still use things that i used during y childhood... a habit? a characteristic? what's yours ? his? hers? theirs? others? I do really wonder somehow...
* although it is my usual excuse, but I do have bad and sensitive digestive system, hence it is convincing most of the time.. clever huh? hehehe...*
But I did think I was able to wake up on time today with TWO alarms set and putting them next to my pillow...!!! Wondered why i didnt hear anything( yet! again!) this morning... went out yesterday with Umzy and got to bed at 1am... i did this couple of time before. Hmmm.. really wonder why...!!
mentioning about going out. Yeah! what have really got into me! I have been going out pretty often nowadays! Almost every off days, i wanted to go out even on working days! Is it what as i mentioned above? some changes?
but I am enjoying it !! Music does turn me on!! Good one of course !! Been meeting up and hanging out with new friends... I think I am starting to enjoy my life now!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehuu!!
funny thing for today:
uMzy says:
well.. yeah.. u got the reason.. u were soo sick tht u didnt get up on time cuz od medication ... and whn u got up , u were still ill.
GiRaFfy says:
i said i had a diarhea or however u will spell it
uMzy says:
if ur supervisor is english, he eill understand.. if hes ur bro, he wont give a shit and if , if hes Indian.. best of luck with tht
GiRaFfy says:
lolz.. u are right he is indian !
uMzy says:
ohh no.. here we go
Lovely things for today:
Stefan said he loves me always!!
Kelvin said he care for me and Tommy as friends and we hold a special space in his heart in his friends department!! * awww.. how sweet!!! Thanks Kelvin*
NEW thing for today:
Kevin from my workplace just gave another call to check how am i doing in my position as i have now been employed for over a month. I said exactly what I thought and what I have been telling my friends. Opps.. that's something new in me!!
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> BRAVERY<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
as I never really complaint to people straight in their faces.... haha NEW YEAR!!!
what a nice day off.. staying in the whole day.. now getting a slight headache because i haven't left the room yet except for the little breakfast preparation downstairs and shower upstairs. LOlz..! what a lazy bastard.. * see! the same old me!!
Recently fell in love with this song ~ Desert Rose- by Sting. One of my old-time favourite song.. love the arabic singing part..
and also, The Desert Rose by Aishwarya Rai. The dance in the desert just simply took my breathe away...!! gorgeous!!!
and I am still figuring out how to edit this blog site nicely... hmm.. any help?
Friday 2 January 2009
HaPpY NeW YeaR 2009 !!!
HapPy NeW YeaR 2009 !!! HuuuuRay!!!
oh well.. i know this is a little bit late.. but hey!! at least i finally made an effort to start a blog... Oh yeah...!! Been years never wrote anything similar, about my daily life, about anything exciting that happened... time to start it all over again!!
second day of the new year.. nothing much exciting happened really since the new-year-eve-night-out with James and Umzy... it was a great one !! went out to the bar before heading to see the fireworks at london eye but was late ..couldnt get into the viewing area.. pucha ! It was freezing outside..!! Unbelieveable!
>>>>>>> James does have some charms and admirers<<<<<<<<
New Year Resolution 1 : Next new year eve, would have someone to be with me to watch the amazing fireworks. Someone special to share such special moment with ! * thought about this while watching the fireworks and those lovely couples... gosh ! how jealous!!*
New Year Resolution 2 : Have a LIFE !!!! Spend less time on the computer, the internet and go out more often.. make more friends....hell yeah babay!! =P ~
New Year Resolution 3 : ......... cant think of any now.. hehehe !!
oh well.. i know this is a little bit late.. but hey!! at least i finally made an effort to start a blog... Oh yeah...!! Been years never wrote anything similar, about my daily life, about anything exciting that happened... time to start it all over again!!
second day of the new year.. nothing much exciting happened really since the new-year-eve-night-out with James and Umzy... it was a great one !! went out to the bar before heading to see the fireworks at london eye but was late ..couldnt get into the viewing area.. pucha ! It was freezing outside..!! Unbelieveable!
>>>>>>> James does have some charms and admirers<<<<<<<<
New Year Resolution 1 : Next new year eve, would have someone to be with me to watch the amazing fireworks. Someone special to share such special moment with ! * thought about this while watching the fireworks and those lovely couples... gosh ! how jealous!!*
New Year Resolution 2 : Have a LIFE !!!! Spend less time on the computer, the internet and go out more often.. make more friends....hell yeah babay!! =P ~
New Year Resolution 3 : ......... cant think of any now.. hehehe !!
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