Wednesday, 28 January 2009

~tears~

had a pretty rough, bad , long day today...
started off in the morning when i opened my locker in the changing room... someone else's stuff was inside and mine was all gone !!! couldn't change my uniforms so i went to the canteen to wait for the supervisor and see what we could do about it. while sitting in the canteen, i thought why not to help them setting up the buffet first. So i went in the kitchen area, trying to do what i wanted to do and the chef saw me. He spoke to me not so nicely : what are u doing here? why are u like this? no uniform, OUT of the kitchen! . oh well.. i explained what happened and he agreed and allowed me to continue what i intended to do ..

minutes later, the supervisor came and was shocked while he saw me in my normal clothing. I explained what happened to him and he said, ok go help and then talkto the HR later. So i did what I do every morning, setting up the buffet.. when i finished and went back to the kitchen... saw the uniform attendent, went up to her and wanted to ask something. Before i managed to ask anything, she started : Uniform at 7 o'clock, i am going to be in the laundry now... uniform at 7 o'clock!
oh well, okies... so i walked off and said thank you...

then the night manager saw me and went mental!! Shouted at me : What are you doing here? why are you like this? where is your uniform? why are u in the kitchen? do yo uknow you are not allowed to be in here like this?... and on and on and on... tried to explained, but he didnt listen... and wanted me straight out of the kitchen and sent me directly to the canteen... BUSTED ...!!!

went to the canteen reallly pissed off and upset !! Was it really my fault.. and ok, i did something wrong of being in the kitchen without my uniform but, did everyone have to shout back/ react like that.. say it/communicate it nicely.. is that a hard work?

Fine! got a cup of tea, sat down and a collegue walked in... explained to him what happened and he said it happened sometimes, so take it easy.. nice words... then the supervisor came in and asked me to go down to the uniform room and get my another set of the uniform. Right at that moment, the uniform attendent walked in, and she shouted: NO !!! you can't do it like that.. now you are having another problem with the locker? This is the second time! now you have lost two set of uniform!! NO.. you can not do it like that... and on and on and on...
my supervisor trying to explain what happened and ended up a rather LOUD discussion, right behind me.. GREAT!! that's exactly what i want ....!

At last, i followed her down to the uniform room and got my another set of the uniforms but she never stopped !! still keep going on.. and on and on... ' so this is your last uniform.. you have nothing to change anymore.. so don't come here and get change next time ...'

ok ok.. that's what i knew how to respond and really fed up with dealing with her anyway... then i asked a question out of casuality. Thinking if someone had taken over my locker then they must have cleared it and would probably take things back here, especially the uniforms. so i asked her if she had received anything.. and BOMB! again! bounced back ' have u seen anything that is yours around here? NO.. there isnt. i haven't received anything! '... BOMB!! got BOMBED again!!

but i haven't got my shoes !! now i had the uniform but what about my shoes... met the supervisor and he asked me to go change and will put me to polish cutlery today... so i changed.. black shirt, black apron , black trousers and WHITE shoes...! WEeeeeeee...!! the CLOWN of the day !!!

walked in the kitchen again throught the stewarding area, and the fat stewarding guy started again :' OI!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING? ' .... couldnt really be bothered to deal with him.. so i said : 'Oh don't start with me again please..! ' in an unfriendly way...

Had briefing..and went to start the work of today !! Came another supervisor. Buffled he looked. I had to explain again and agreed to talk to the HR afterwards...

so been working as a clown today.. whoever that passed by, those that spotted on my CLOWNLY new uniforms looked surprised, shocked and somehow, amazed and annoyed... some started in an unfriendly tone..' what is it? why are u dressing up like this? what are u doing?
some jumped right straight into the conclusions ' did you forget/lost your locker keys ?'
some came smiling and laughing asking what happened...

'.. stayed calm and smiled and explained.. stayed calm and smiled and explained... 'I told myself....

THE NEW F& B MANAGER !!!!!! eye widened just a little bit on his emotionless face when i told him what happened after he came running asking me to do him a favour... and again, agreed to speak to the HR about this urgent issue afterwards when they came in to work...

tick... tick... tick... 10.30am! breakfast finished... work getting easier... time to go to the HR. Went down to the HR Share Services Office, no one could deal with it and sent me to the Head HR, walked to her building, no one's there.. back to the kitchen, spoke to the supervisor and had to go and check if she would be in the office again later.

back and forth.. back and forth.. Finally, the F&B Manager appeared and lead me to the HR with him... sorted things out in her office.. my stuff was in a HUGE chinky red,white,blue stripe kinda bag... everything's there...

pheww.... released !!! She apologized and promised to give me a new locker later on.. okies fine.. things sorted out, everything is ok!

walked back to the restaurant with my shoes.. all BLACK now.. not a single bit of white! had lunch, stayed for lunch service... 3.30pm, signed out. OFF WORK...

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on the bus, tried to ring this lady that arrange the single room viewing yesterday. Wanted to make an apppointment to pay the deposit for the single room..
ring once... no answer
ring twice... no answer
third time... no answer
fourth... no answer
fifth... no answer...
GAVE UP then i sent her a msg... asking her to call back ASAP...

got home... OH!! Where're my clothes? They were there on the heater when i left for work this morning, now they are gone? went upstairs, into the room, asked James, he didnt know... well... soemthing bad is coming up i sensed!
looked around the room, nope.. nothing... dustbins outside, nope...
well... someone had taken them...!!
got really really upset and went grumpy...!! called the school registrar, she was the 1st one on my mind that i thought i might seek help from, for help... because I really didnt know what else to do ... as I assumed it was that bitch's great work. She moved out, not happy, saw my stuff, took them and threw them away !! and the other fat one's car was outside the house. so YEAH !!!

HAD ENOUGH! went upstairs wanted to take a shower.. but broke down in tears instead in the dark..... thinking;
1 - what have i done that i deserved all these?
2 - what a shit day i have today!
3 - I couldnt cope anymore...
4 - Have i really done something that bad to deserve all these?
5 - I have no one to share all these with...I cry, who could I cry to?
6 - Felt lonely
well.. all sort of things.. and tears kept coming down....
Stopped and felt better.. more released... clothes only.. not a big big issue anyway.. gone is gone.. nothing i could really do to get them back.

peeep..peeep...peep.... someone called! answer and a voice came from the other end : so what happened..? you lost all your clotheS? how many clothes and what are they? Your work clothes?... the landlord called... guess it was the registrar who informed him... didnt sound happy yet abit helpful...
' i don't know what is happening and who ever that started it.. but now it is getting as a very childish fight!'
apologized and thanked for the help.. hung up the phone and went back to the room...spoke to James about it...

oppss.... another thing to annoy the principle...!!

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Decided to call the lady again...
ring one... no answer
ring two... no answer
then used James phone to call
ring one... no answer
ring two...... ......... HELLO, XXX SPEAKING!!!

so she picked up the phone and explained she left the phone somewhere the whole day and just got back the phone...
asked about the room and she said ' oh but the currenly tenant had decided she wanted to stay again, so i am really sorry the room is not available anymore . BUt i have another room of the same price in chiswick... blah blah blah'...

KNEW IT !!! I knew this was going to happen !!! .. meanwhile was reading the mail from BaBa.. made things even worse... all in a sudden, felt like i miss them so so so so so much...!! especially now, when having problems, but i couldn't tell them because didnt want to spoil their holidays worrying about me over here.... tears started to flood the eyes again... and rolled down...

went straight up to the toilet.. closed the door, off the light, sat down in the corner.. and started to cry again... the second time...
thinking...
1 - family
2 - family
3 - family
4 - family
5 - family...........
I really really missed them... promised myself will go home for CNY next year....

tears kept coming down.. and down and down...
stopped... and felt tired... think i dozed off for a few seconds in the toilet until i heard my phone was buzzing.... must be Honza that called...


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Came downstairs, went back online and spoke to Honza.. told me everything of the day... and then when i finished, he said he is sorry and he got to go to sort things out and asked me to stayed online...

talked alittle bit with James, sat for a while in front of the computer and went to lay down on the bed for a while.. then phone was buzzing again...

' hey... it's me..how are you? come downstairs! '
' what! you are outside now?'

went downstairs, opened the dooor and there he was... Honza.. holding a bag...!


a chocolate cake + a card + three chocolate eggs + hugs = SWEET !!!

that really cheered me up alot and so unexpected !!!
Thank you Honzky!!!

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chated a little bit with Mish Mish.. gosh! can't believe how much I miss him and really couldn't wait to see him again in London!

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THE END OF THE SHIT DAY........

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